Back to school ...

I realized why it is that I want to go back to school so bad. Its because I dont feel intellectually challenged any more. Living in an academic world with people of comparable intellect, I was never overburdened with stupid comments or idiocy. But now, released into the 'real world' where there is no filter from this, I find myself surrounded by stupidity. I feel myself become stupider with every day I dont pick up a Math text book. My brain is wasting away, thanks to the general public. Sure, money is great, but is it worth it? I dont think so. I'd rather go back to school, be poor, but be intellectually stimulated. I want to be around people who understand my discourses, and can reason and ration with some semblance of intellect. If you're one of those people, send me a message. We should chat.


UPDATE (July 2011): I'm back in school! Have been for 8 months now. And although it is nice to converse with 'people of comparable intellect', I now remember how nice it was to have things like 'free time' or 'time to go out for a drink' or 'time to sleep' or 'time to do anything really'. Oh well.

What I Think...

People are stupid. We just are. Especially in today's day and age. I fully believe there was a time when people where stronger. When society was better. When people were purer. I am not pure. I wish I was. My name means purity. So where did I go wrong? (I'll come back to that) My point is that almost everyone I know has made some serious mistakes in life. I know I have. And guess what, there are always consequences for the decisions we make and for the actions we take. However, wisdom is not inherent in any one of us; it is gained from experiences. The man who has made the most mistakes in life is the man who has had the most opportunities to gain the most wisdom. However, most people I know don't learn from their mistakes. They make them, they make excuses for them, they pretend like they're ok now and it was a fluke and it'll never happen again, and they go on repeating them.

What I think is that life is about being the best person you can be. I also believe its never too late. I also believe its already too late for most people. The first mistake you make is the first opportunity you have to realize you've made a mistake, and not enough people do. I remember every single decision I made that I regret. And for all but one of those mistakes I can happily say I've not repeated. My one weakness .... I lack the catalytic ability to release what I see and hear and can feel inside.


.... this is one weird post ... I can't remember why I started or where I started from or how I ended up to where I am now, but I leave you with this ...

... How many times have you closed your eyes and followed your heart in the last week? If its under 7 its not nearly enough.

I have to go now. Who's closing their eyes? I am. Are you?